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The Snarky Voice | A Dream

2017-gmc-yukon-denaliI had a lucid dream on the morning of 12/27/2017. I was in what seemed like a large hotel complex with a concert venue, in a big city. I attended the concert of a superstar performer and later a meet and greet where she signed autographs and spoke with her fans. I got the chance to sit and talk with her for a while; she was kind, attentive and even seemed interested in my life. Later, she excused herself to go change clothes and promised to return. I waited for whatindiana_central_canal seemed like hours, and then left. It was morning when I drove my black SUV out of the parking garage into a large urban metropolis. I made an immediate right turn drove down a steep curved hill. I merged onto a ramp that looked like a highway entrance. As I continued down the road, I saw what looked like a canal ahead and quickly crossed over to the other side through a wide opening. Suddenly, a huge water surge engulfed my truck and it was pulled underwater. Extremely frightened, I still acted as if I was driving and the truck quickly floated to the surface. The dream ended.

giphyA very strange aspect of this dream is that there was a comment dialogue, critique or one-sided conversation going on during its entirety. When I heard a comment, I argued my point and then the dream continued. The comments emanated from a snarky, but squeaky elf-like voice. While dreaming, I determined the snarky squeaky voice was a demon reporting on me to God, although I never heard another voice (or God speak) during the dream. The first comment was, “She’s a big baby!” Taken aback, I vehemently rebuked the voice. Arguing my case from birth to adulthood, running down how I was born into trouble, betrayal, neglect, divorce, abuse by my father’s second wife and a cross-country move, all by the age of 3. The loss of my beloved maternal grandmother when I was 22, she raised me from the age of 3 until my mother remarried when I was 8. My grandmother was the person who showed me a mother’s love and care. Later, the sudden and tragic loss of my mother, who aspirated when I was 23. In 1998, I suffered my sister’s tragic death due to a massive stroke after a year of taking care of her, her business and her household. I argued through a litany of the horrible things that have happen throughout a very difficult adulthood where I invested in myself to obtain a graduate degree. Once gainfully employed I conducted myself as an exemplary employee, but was almost immediately discriminated against, marginalized and sexually harassed, then fired when I filed an EEOC case. I lamented over several bouts of homelessness and how I’d lost everything from my childhood and everything I’d worked for; and how embarrassing, humiliating and emotionally demoralizing my adult life has been. I screamed, YOU DON’T KNOW ME! YOU DIDN’T LIVE THIS LIFE! YOU DID NOTHING TO HELP WHEN I WAS DESTITUTE. YOU STOOD BY AND WATCHED ME CRY MY EYES OUT TO GOD PLEADING FOR HELP, GUIDANCE AND A MIRACLE! SO SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Just before the dream ended, the demon squeaky-elf voice yelled, “She ain’t got no eyes.” Again, I strongly rebuked the critique sighting the longstanding record of my salvation, faith in God, Bible and other spiritual study, my years of fervent worship, prayer, confessing the Word over myself, my circumstances and my life; including my 20 year practice of spiritual meditation through speaking in tongues. I shouted at the demon voice, “I AM THE ANOINTED OF GOD! I HAVE EYES TO SEE AND EARS TO HEAR WHAT SAITH THE LORD! DEMON, YOU HAVE NO AUTHORITY OVER MY LIFE, FLEE AND GO BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM!”

I awakened frightened by the dream’s underwater trauma and upset over my argument with the demon voice. Those comments dredged up everything I’ve been working to let go of. As I lay there tears streaming down my face, imagining myself under water trapped in that truck, I heard another voice say, “You’re in the sunken place.” I cried out, “NO! That was a  bubble floating upward to explode upon the water’s surface.”

My realization is that, I’ve been confined in a bubble floating through life slowly suffocating. To redeem the time, I must break free from restrictions, completely let go of past hurt, grief and disappointments to connect with the creative and regenerating force of my truth. To enter into what God has for me, I must continuously draw in and be inspired by the unparalleled life (unique in kind or quality); and thereby be emboldened by the power of self-actualization.

This is the first time I’ve heard an anomalous voice speaking to someone about me during a dream. I’ve had some pretty strange dreams, but this is one of the weirdest.

Seeing a hotel in your dream means a new state of mind or a shift in personal identity. You need to move away from your old habits and old way of thinking.

Dreaming that you are at a concert, represents harmony and cooperation in a situation or relationship of your waking life. You are experiencing an uplift in your spirits.

Seeing a famous singer in your dream, represents harmony and some divine influence or vibrations. It indicates glorification of the human spirit. Consider also your general impression of this singer and how those specific qualities may be triggered by someone or some situation in your waking life.

Dreaming that it is morning indicates that fortune and pleasure are within near reach. It may also indicate new beginnings, renewal, an awakening or starting over. Dreaming that the morning is cloudy means that an important situation will burden you for a while.

Seeing a truck in your dream, implies that you are overworked. You may be taking on too many tasks and responsibilities that are weighing you down. On a side note, pregnant women often dream of trucks or driving trucks. This may be a metaphor of the load they are are carrying or an expression of their changing bodies.

Dreaming that you are in a garage means a period of inactivity and idleness in your life. You may feel that you have no direction or guidance toward achieving your goals. Dreaming that you are pulling your car into the garage, represents security and stability brought about by your accomplishments and efforts. Dreaming that you are opening the garage door indicates that you have made a decision about a matter. You may have decided on the path you will take in reaching your opportunities and goals. On the other hand, if you are closing the garage door, then it suggests that you are putting off your goals for the sake of others around you.

Seeing a city in your dream means a sense of community and your social environment. Dreaming that you are in a deserted city or that you feel alienated from the activity of the city, suggests that you feel rejected by those around you. Seeing a city in ruins means that you are neglecting your social relationships and allowing them to deteriorate.

Dreaming that you are climbing a hill means your struggles in achieving a goal. Dreaming that you are standing on top of a hill means that you have succeeded in your endeavors or that you have now have the resources to complete a task at hand.

Dreaming that you are driving a vehicle means your life’s journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life. If you are driving and cannot see the road ahead of you, then it indicates that you do not know where you are headed in life and what you really want to do with yourself. You are lacking direction and goals. If you are driving on a curvy road, then it indicates that you are having difficulties in achieving your goals and the changes associated with it. Dreaming that someone else is driving you, represents your dependence on the driver. You are not in control of your life and following the goals of others instead of your own. If you are driving from the passenger side of a car, then it suggests that you are trying to gain control of the path that your life is taking. You are beginning to make your own decisions.

Dreaming that you are going up a ramp means your struggles in achieving a goal. It is symbolic of your determination and ambition. If you fail to go up a ramp, then it suggests that you are not able to overcome your difficulties. There are still obstacles standing on your way. Dreaming that you are going down a ramp, refers to some instability in your life.

Seeing a highway in your dream, represents your sense of direction and your life’s path. Consider the conditions of the highway which will reveal how much you feel in charge of your life. A smooth, straight highway means inner peace, while a winding, bumpy road reflects emotional distress/disharmony.

Seeing an opening in your dream means a new influence or new-found inspiration entering your life. Dreaming that you are opening something, suggests that you are unleashing your potential. It may also mean new opportunities.

Seeing water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. Seeing calm, clear water in your dream means that you are in tune with your spirituality. It indicates serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation. Seeing muddy or dirty water in your dream indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions. Dreaming that water is rising up in your house means your struggles and overwhelming emotions. Hearing running water in your dream indicates meditation, reflection and pondering of your thoughts and emotions. Dreaming that you are walking on water, suggests that you have supreme and ultimate control over your emotions. It may also suggest that you need to “stay on top” of your emotions and not let them explode out of hand. Alternatively, it is symbolic of faith in yourself.

To dream of being afraid is an expression of hidden anxiety and untamed fears. Left out of control, these would lead to failure at the private and professional levels. When you dream of others being afraid, it might indicate that you are unconsciously ignoring their calls for help, you might need to leave your own fears behind and lend a helping hand, because these frightened people are in no situation to offer any kind of support.

Dreaming that you are floating, implies acceptance, letting go of your problems or worries and just going with the flow. You are experiencing new-found freedom. It also means that you will prove victorious over your obstacles that may presently seem overwhelming. Dreaming that you are floating, but are afraid to move, suggests that you are questioning your own abilities. You are experiencing doubts in yourself.

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Proposed | The Tallest Building in Michigan

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Dan Gilbert | Bedrock Proposes Colossal Building Project For Hudson’s Site

The tallest building in Michigan development includes a 52 story, 734 foot tower with the low rise portion encompassing

  • 1.2 million square feet
  • A nine story “podium” with mixed use, commercial, office, technology, arts and cultural space
  • 250 residential units
  • Three stories below grade featuring additional commercial space and 700 parking spaces.

The development design plans are by New York City-based SHoP Architects in partnership with  Hamilton Anderson Associates a Detroit based firm. The development will include retail, residential, parking and an experiential destination focusing on technology, arts, and culture.

See the news video here. See interior renderings after the jump.

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In Honor Of Black History Month 2017

The Racist Annihilation of African Identity and Culture

Below are examples of the newspaper comics and advertising that perpetuated dehumanizing labels, concepts and ideology to demean and demoralize Africans as human beings and their existence in America. The main idea was to teach and subconsciously ingrain a virulent hatred and staunch disrespect for Africans among the so-called white population.

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“Negro” Assimilation into European Cultural Norms

Across innumerable generations, Europeans have exacted didactic use of demeaning terms, ideologies, institutional systemic policies, practices and economic and political structures toward and upon Africans in America. These words, ideas and actions presented in the public forum, were a conduit for mass indoctrination to create contempt and hatred toward and upon the African. The Africans left largely vacuous, down trodden and illiterate from slavery were already steeped in self-hatred yet, still endured the hurtful arrows, stings and heartbreak of relentless public insults and slander. For Africans to have long endured such animus, only to have the critical outcome be ubiquitous disadvantage and ever present oppression.

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Some of the racist terms consistently used toward Africans during slavery, Jim Crow segregation and beyond are tar baby, jungle bunny, darkey, dusky, nigger, negress, spade, coon, cliff ape, crispy, dinge, dootie, eight ball, field nigger, geechee, ghetto, gutter or porch monkey, horse gums, inky, liver lips, nappy head, sambo, skillet, pickaninny, mammy, jigaboo, smoke or smokey, sooty, spook, boy and girl. The pervasive use of these terms has caused significant harm to the African psyche and level of self-esteem.

Historically, Africans in America have gone to great lengths to gain acceptance within so-called white society by endeavoring to change their appearance. This was and continues to be practiced through the use of skin bleach, cosmetics, various hair straightening methods, wigs/weaves and modern day plastic surgery. However, this assimilationist behavior is largely deep seated self-hatred initiated by indoctrination and inflicted through European chattel slavery terrorism. Later, black assimilation was perpetuated by post-slavery blackface entertainment, racist pseudo-science and literature, racist exaggerated animalistic artistic caricatures, poetry using pejorative terms for Africans, newspaper articles, short stories, comic strips and movies depicting Africans as filthy, violent, deplorable, ignorant and depraved; also toys and advertisements that present Africans as amoral and less than human, objects of manipulation and perpetual servants.

Racism/White Supremacy, Jim Crow Segregation & The Unending War On Black Lives

The Dred Scott Decision of March 6, 1857 seems to have taken on a life of its own in the hearts and minds of many who feel superior to; or who have a deep sense of contempt and hatred toward Africans in America. The Supreme Court decision stated that slaves and their descendants had, “no rights that a white man was bound to respect.”  Check out the complete decision below:

“In the opinion of the court, the legislation and histories of the times, and the language used in the Declaration of Independence, show, that neither the class of persons who had been imported as slaves, nor their descendants, whether they had become free or not, were then acknowledged as a part of the people, nor intended to be included in the general words used in that memorable instrument…They had for more than a century before been regarded as beings of an inferior order, and altogether unfit to associate with the white race, either in social or political relations; and so far inferior, that they had no rights which the white man was bound to respect; and that the negro might justly and lawfully be reduced to slavery for his benefit.” Chief Justice Roger B. Taney


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In Honor of Black History Month 2017

The Effects Of Slavery Were Meant To Last

Slavers inflicted a corrupt version of the law of Karma (rebirth, cause and effect) upon the slave to induce annihilating fear through terrorism, thereby evoking a subconscious dedication to the will of the European slave holder (so-called master). The objective of this system of extreme cruelty and violent physical, mental and emotional torture was to cement upon the subconscious minds of the slaves a loyal devotion to the European across generations. Thus, all African and other indigenous melanated peoples subjected to the trans-Atlantic slave trade suffer from “Post Traumatic Slave Syndrome” (See video below). As depicted below, slave on slave flogging was a method used to establish mutual hatred within the slave population, later colorism was also employed. The depictions below do not include the atrocities of child rape and murder, female rape with subsequent mulatto child bearing, “buck breaking” homosexual male rape and torture, starvation, sleep deprivation and other “Willie Lynch” type terrorism.

Terrorism: The calculated use of violence (or threat of violence) against people by means of intimidation, coercion or instilling fear; in order to attain goals that are political, religious or ideological in nature.

EXCERPT |  INJURED HUMANITY; BEING A Representation of what the unhappy Children of Africa endure from those who call themselves CHRISTIANS. The respectable and increasing numbers of those, who, from motives of humanity, have concurred in rejecting the produce of West-India slavery, cannot but afford a subject of the sincerest joy to every friend of mankind. Even those who, from motives of interest, still favour or engage in the trade, have been obliged to be silent upon the injustice of first procuring the Negroes, and have not had the hardi-ness to excuse or palliate the horrors of the middle passage: but still they assert, that the treatment the slaves meet with in the West-Indies amply counter-balances their previous sufferings; nay, they have not scrupled to extol a state of servitude as a happy asy-lum from African despotism, and calmly maintain, that the condition of the labouring poor in England is much harder than that of the Negroes in the West-India islands. See a copy of the Injured Humanity broadside here.


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